Britney Spears has released an audio message directed at her youngest son, Jayden James Federline, in response to claims and remarks he’s made about her in various interviews.
In a heartbreaking three-minute audio posted to Instagram hours ago, Spears said she resented recent comments the 15-year-old made about praying for her and hoping she gets better.
In response, the 40-year-old wondered if Jayden was speaking out and “undermining” her because he’s fast approaching the age of 18, when she won’t be financially responsible for him anymore.
“So Jayden, as you undermine my behaviour just like my whole family always has with ‘I hope she gets better. I will pray for her.’ Pray for what?” Spears began in her lengthy audio message.
“I keep working so I can pay off mum’s legal fees and her house? Do you guys want me to get better so I can continue to give your dad 40 grand a month? Or is the reason behind you guys deciding to be hateful because it’s actually over in two years, and you don’t get anything?”
Spears then said she always looked forward to her weekly visitation time with Jayden and her eldest son, Sean Preston, 16, only for them to ignore her.
“I will say it. I sat in that kitchen and looked you straight in the eyes, beautiful boy, and said, ‘How come I can’t see you guys anymore or just see you guys more?'” she recalled. “I look forward to seeing you guys weekly. You said, ‘Mama, oh it’ll change.’ You and your brother left me in that house always two hours early.”
“Preston would sleep. You would play the piano the whole time. And if I didn’t shower you guys with gifts and have amazing food ready and play a motherf—ing saint, it was still never good enough.”
Spears said the visitations have stopped altogether now at their request after she simply asked to see more of her boys, who she said will only see her when he’s “better”.
“You were just like my other family. You secretly loved looking at me as if something was wrong with me,” she said. “I didn’t need a family hiding s–t in houses and whispering s–t behind my back. Feeling subconsciously guilty because I paid for every f—ing thing in both homes.”
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“You’ve witnessed me, how my family has been to me, and that’s all you know. Like I said, I feel you all secretly like to say something’s wrong with me,” she said. “Honestly, my dad needs to be in jail for the rest of my life. But like I said, God would not allow that to happen to me if a God existed.
“I don’t believe in god anymore because of the way my children and my family have treated me. There is nothing to believe in anymore. I’m an atheist y’all.It saddens me not one of you have valued me as a person.”
Listen to the clip above for more.